Anger.

I HATE THAT I WANTED IT TO WORK SO BAD, AND THAT I WAS SO BLINDLY IN LOVE WITH YOU THAT I DIDN'T EVEN SEE IT COMING THIS TIME.

I HATE YOU FOR BEGINNING TO REPLACE ME BEFORE I WAS EVEN GONE.

I HATE THAT YOU PLAY ALL FUCKING INNOCENT, AND PLAY OFF PEOPLE'S SYMPATHY-- OFTEN TIMES WHEN YOU DO KNOW BETTER.

I HATE THAT YOU WERE ABLE TO DO THE THINGS TO ME THAT YOU DID.

I HATE THAT I GAVE YOU everything. EVERYTHING. and YOU DIDN'T EVEN HAVE THE DECENCY TO TELL ME YOU WERE DONE WITH ME, TIRED OF ME, ANGRY WITH ME.

I HATE THAT I WASTED THE LAST 5 MONTHS ON SOMETHING YOU NEVER REALLY WANTED.

I HATE THAT YOU USED ME FOR COMFORT BECAUSE YOU WERE CONFUSED.

I HATE THAT I WOULD LEAVE NICE, BIG BLOCKS OF TIME FOR YOU IN MY LIFE BECAUSE I WANTED TO, AND THAT SOMETIMES YOU HUNG OUT WITH ME SIMPLY BECAUSE THERE WAS NOTHING BETTER TO DO.

I HATE THAT I WANT YOU TO WANT ME BACK, AND THAT YOU DON'T.

I HATE THAT I'M THE ONE CRYING EVERY FUCKING NIGHT WHEN I WAS THE ONE BEING FUCKED OVER.

I HATE THAT I FELL FOR IT, AND THAT I WANTED IT SO MUCH.

I HATE THAT I DEFENDED YOU, AND TOOK CARE OF YOU AND LOVED YOU WITH EVERYTHING I HAD IN ME-- EVEN WHEN YOU WERE ACTING LIKE AN ASSHOLE-- AND THAT I HAVE NOTHING TO SHOW FOR IT.

I HATE THAT YOU DON'T TAKE RESPONSIBILITY FOR ANYTHING.

I HATE THAT YOU'VE MADE ME A FOOL.

I HATE THAT YOU GOT ME TO DISCOUNT MY INSTINCTS.

I HATE THAT YOU TOOK ADVANTAGE OF MY KINDNESS, AND MY UNDERSTANDING.

I HATE THAT YOU'VE GIVEN ME TRUST ISSUES.

I HATE THAT YOU CALLED ME A PSYCHO, AND CRAZY WHEN YOU APPARENTLY HAD GIVEN ME REASONS NOT TO TRUST YOU.

I hate how much I lowered my standards and expectations so that you could fit them.

I hate that I lost sight of where you are and where your issues begin.


Look at this mess.